Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Discouraged

I've been in a bad mood today. I'm 5 weeks out from the surgery, and I'm realizing that this is going to be a very long recovery process. When they told me I couldn't bear weight on my foot for 6 weeks, I think I let that 6-week mark concrete in my brain, which wasn't a good idea.

I cannot bear any weight on my foot for 6 weeks. That doesn't mean I'll be walking normally any time soon. I return to the doctor next Friday, the 26th, and I can start putting partial pressure on my foot. I won't be able to get rid of my crutches, which I think was my initial thought.

Right now I'm trying to stretch my ankle and press my foot against things to increase my range of motion. This hurts. I don't feel like I'm making any progress, and that is so discouraging and frustrating.

I'm tired.

I'm tired of not being able to do things for myself. I'm tired of not being able to go anywhere by myself. I'm tired of asking my kids to go and get things for me or do things for me. I'm tired of having to really limit my schedule because I get tired so easily. And I'm just tired. (Did I mention that?) My body hurts, especially between my shoulder blades.

I really don't want to have a pity party, but I just want to be honest. I've been pretty upbeat about the whole thing so far (most of the time, but especially here on the blog), and today I'm just not feeling it.

I know Satan would like nothing more than for this discouragement to defeat me. Would you mind putting a Scripture in the comments section that would encourage me? I'd really appreciate it.

8 comments:

Dave and Lisa said...

I am sorry, Jenn. I hope things get easier for you very soon.

Isaiah 40:29 "He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak."

Matthew 11:28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."

1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."

Psalm 54:4 "Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me."

I love you!

Stacey at Living by Faith said...

Shout for joy, O heavens; rejoice, O earth; burst into song, O mountains! For the Lord comforts his people and will have compassion on his afflicted ones.
Isaiah 48-49

The Lord himself goes before you and will be with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Deuteronomy 31:8

{{{HUGS}}} Stacey

Leone said...

You have every reason to feel discouraged and in a bad mood ..... this whole episode is a very frustrating experience for you.

Made even more so as you have two young children to care for and being away from extended family and friends.

I had the same surgery (different leg) and had the same scar. Mine happened when we were on holidays (12 mth motorhome trip around Australia) Everyone said we should fly home, but I was determined to 'finish the trip that we had started'. Was not easy, as it is not easy for anyone, including yourself. But there is a light at the end of the tunnel and the this whole horrible episode will be a distant memory!

Hard to see that right now though!!

I think you are doing superbly well .... far better than I did that's for sure.... I often think of you and wonder what you are doing 'today', but also think how incredibly brave you are and so strong... even though you may not feel so. :-)

Hang in there, there are many friends that care for you and think of you often. xx

Melanie said...

Hey girl! My heart and prayers are with you.

"Your sun shall no longer go down, Nor shall your moon withdraw itself; for the Lord will be your everlasting light" -Isaiah 60:20

CALL ME if you need to. I'm stuck for a few days too, all bandaged up.

HUGS!

Camille, Blake and Pierce said...

Sweet sister....

May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

Romans 15:13

Andrea said...

So... I guess the verse about "throwing off everything that hinders us and running the race with endurance" would not be very encouraging, huh? :) I hope you're smiling right now.

How about:
"No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but painful. Later on, however, it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace for those who have been trained by it." Hebrews 12:11

That's my favorite verse of all time.

Sorry you are having to go through this. God is doing something big in you and through you, though, so rest in that. He never wastes a hurt.

Shelley Gray said...

"Be cheerful no matter what; pray all the time; thank God no matter what happens." 1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 (MSG)

Hey Jennifer, If you did not feel down sometimes, you would not be normal. That devil can just kiss it! You have so many prayers coming your way, he can't stay around for long!! Much Love, Shelley Gray

Dana said...

You know I'm no expert at scripture, but I wanted to find something that would help. I think this is the one.

"He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds ... Great is our Lord, and mighty in power; his understanding has no limit." (Psalm 147:3-4)

I hope you're feeling better. (((HUGS)))



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